The Lazy Song

So its a long weekend here and I think if I had to sum up my life for the past three days this song would best describe it:

Its funny how a bit of alone time can make you think. I have come up with 5 random things that I have decided about myself and my life as a result of all of this thinking:

1. I want to move
2. I hate call centres
3. I want to feel pursued (at least once!)
4. I need to stop drinking
5. I NEED to get back into running

I think I like to change my mind a lot also which makes decisions about my life tricky. So I have decided I need to focus on the things I can control and work on the small things before I have any hope of tackling the big stuff.

Okay so basically I can tackle 1 & 2 at the same time- which looking at things can't be straight away.
3 I have no control over so there is no point even spending much more time thinking about it.
So through process of elimination I am going to be looking at 4 & 5 for the next month- Here is how I want this to work-

Step 1: RUN! Every day after work- no matter what the weather. No matter how much I can not be fucked. I know I will thank myself in the end (I may need help being reminded of that!)

Step 2: DRINK LESS! This is also going to help me with the 'saving plan' I bought up in an earlier post. So I say 'Stop Drinking' yes but I think this will have to be a gradual process because lets be honest- I'm only 22 and I like to have fun and no... sadly I'm not one of those people who can go out clubbing completely sober and enjoy myself. This I think stems from a lack of self confidence- now heres where things get interesting...

I figure I run more and drink less I get fitter and healthier and shed a few right- ergo confidence rises... I figure  self confidence isn't something you either have or you don't it is something you need to grow and maintain. Hence the more I run and the less I drink - Ill be out clubbing sober in no time (okay so maybe not THAT fast... but faster than if I sat here and bitched about it without doing anything).

Also funny story about number 3- so I slept with this guy I like a while back and I haven't really spoken to him since. Mainly because I was completely drunk when it happened and dont remember anything. But it's funny because its a situation that I found paralleled one Jack is going through in his most recent post at Confronting the Confused- If you dont read it let me just tell you its deffo worth a read.

Anyway the situation is this: I told Zachary I liked him a lot and what I got back was "You're a really nice guy but I feel I should be honest with you. Im not really looking to be romantic with anyone at the moment. Im too happy being by myself." - I kind of understood this to an extent because I LOVE single life but when I probed him further it seemed like that was a life plan for him and it kind of threw me. I mean I know everyone is entitled to live their life the way they want to (and Im not judging at all) I just never thought at this age there would be people making plans to be alone the rest of their life- and I dont mean no friends of family but surely there are just some things/needs only a partner can fulfil?

Anyway recap- RUN MORE, DRINK LESS!


xo

 Before you comment on what I'm wearing- it was for a quiz night... Team theme "Social Misfits". Front to back: Geek, Slut, Emo